Hello everyone!
So I figure some sort of introduction is in order…
TLDR: I joined Medium because it looked like a good start for me to post my thoughts and stories etc. BASICALLY TO RANT AND BLOG ABOUT STUFFS.
Since the whole COVID and confinement thing happened (Feb 2020) I was left to face myself and that didn’t feel too good. I noticed that I didn’t have any creative outlet (I’m not musical nor artistic). I felt like a more and more boring person and to top that I wasn’t doing too well in life either. My studies are at a standstill, I haven’t been able to find the motivation to start exercising, looking for a job was just too scary of an idea (it was rather the rejection that came with aallll that hard work that came into writing your entire portfolio), my self-esteem was at 10 (out of 100), my love life is a joke (maybe I’ll blog about that someday), friends were doing a lot better than I am so I didn’t feel like I fit in… well you get the idea: Imposter syndrome. Don’t get me wrong, I do believe I am an interesting person and I know I have stories to tell and life experiences to share. It’s just that I haven’t found the right medium.
It just feels like you’re stuck and you have all this energy in you and the potential but you simply don’t know how to release them.
I have to be honest though, this isn’t my first attempt at blogging. I did give Reddit a try. I had initially thought it would be the right place to start journaling because I was so attracted by the community aspect of the platform. I had fantasized that I would find a sub or a community that would understand me or users who’d even identified with my texts. Surprisingly though, that didn’t go as planned. No doubt it had something to do with popularity algorithms. And that’s what led me here, to Medium!
I still have a lot to learn on how the system here works but I know that I will not only be able to contribute to the community but that it will also benefit me self-development-wise. For now, I’m looking to express myself; to be able to organise my thoughts, to produce not only coherent content but an interesting one! Hopefully, this will get my self-esteem up again.
Thank you for reading and have a pleasant day!
